How in the world am I turning 39 next week?!
WoWzA my last year in my 30’s – I can’t believe it! I’ll be honest,
I struggled with turning 30.
Age is a funny thing…
I’ve always had certain milestones at certain ages in my mind. Kind of like a checklist of MUST HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THIS BY THIS AGE. Where does that even come from? I really think we all do this to a certain degree whether it’s from family pressure, friend pressure, society influence, church groups, etc. Please tell me I’m not the only one!
First up… Married by 25! I beat that one by 3 years – Check! I’ve been beyond blessed to be married to my hubs, my best friend, the one who knows me the best (here on earth) since I was 22. It’s been a wild ride and I wouldn’t want to be on this adventure with anyone else.
Next up… Kids (did you guess it)! There was so much pressure for this one. It’s like you get married and the next question is, “When are you having kids?” or “How many kids do you have now?” And then it switched to, “Are you guys ever having kids?” No check for me on this one! A milestone reroute. We had been married 2 years and I can remember us being so excited to start our family. We wanted 2 kids and we told EVERYONE… Then we waited. The disappointment and heartbreak was real but then we realized God had something totally different in His plans for us. My newly saved hubs would be called into full time youth ministry and we wouldn’t have kids we take home with us but are going on 16 years of ministry life. Thousands of teens we’ve had the amazing opportunity to live life with and share Jesus with. Sure, I don’t fit in with most ladies my age but I wouldn’t change the course God has us on for anything.
At birthdays, we always ask 2 questions… Do you feel older? Not at all!! And what was the best part about this past year? Epcot & Disneyland – It was a palm trees and Disney parks year! And… Seeing God move in the hearts of kids (it will never get old seeing Him at work)!
So, as I look back over the years, there has been heartache and incredible joy! Our path isn’t always what we would choose but man I’d rather be in His will than what I’ve got planned. Sure, there’s definitely struggles, relationship challenges, and missed milestones (like being a mom) but when you know God is for you – That’s all we really need to trust in!
So, as I turn the big 39 I’m going to celebrate exactly where God has me in this life He has designed just for me. And, can I just encourage you, if you’re at a place in your life that doesn’t seem like where you should be TRUST. Trust with your whole heart and He will show you incredible blessings along the way. We are never alone & we are not behind schedule. We are just where God wants us to be with great purpose ahead. Shine!